My Story Episode 24: R.I.P to my frenz's bf...

I was really shocked.
Today must be an unforgettable day for Yen Teng.
I had never saw her being so down and crying so sadly.
It's totally an opposite side of her being so cheerful and her brightly smile.
I wish all her sadness will blow away by wind as she always sing.-Fong shui ah chui.
I want she to gain back her cheerful and brightly smile.
Being alive-not that we can choose.
Being death-nor we can choose neither.
What we can do is treat ppl beside us nicely and left them some good memories.
Safe those we can, cheer them up.
There's no other we can wish for more.

Life's just like a big stage. You will never know who you will be and who you will meet until you are on the stage. Every player has their own character, so do us. Some will leave the stage earlier and some are late. But make sure you will definitely not going to jump down from the stage. If you do, you are a failure.

Self-suicide is the foolishest way to forget everything.
'Make ourself useful for everyone we meet.'
-UnKnowN=)

My Story Episode 23: I HAD CHANGE!!

What's the meaning of believing in someone where else they don't?

I'm not that kind of person who will purposely act good in front of others.

I won't do it if I'm not feeling so.

But, I will definitely do it if I said I will.

I just doing it late, and you had accuse me not doing anything.

As the said goes ' don't judge the book by it's cover'.

I might be seen as a lazy person from outside.

But, I mark on my word.

When I said that I will do it, I won't let it off.

Why don't you try to believe me even once?

Just because I had done something wrong before doesn't mean that it's who I am forever.

I had already change since that day.

But still, your attitude towards me doesn't change at all.

You are still looking me as the past of me.

Even if you are blaming me for telling the truth, I will still do it.

I won't act good to gain your attention.

I will prove that I'm better than the one you paid more attention to.

I know you paid more attention to him because he had be pushing aside since he was small.

But everything had change now!

I'm not the longer the one I was, and he gain the attention that he deserve to.

See now! What's happening! Not the past!

I'm doing it way more excellent than he.

And your attitude towards me is still the same.

I'm disappointed.

Please....I beg you.

Just once, believe in me.

I'm not the longer the past of me.

I don't want my holiday continue like this.

Wish all have a good and enjoyable holiday.

My Story Episode 22:Taekwondo Competition

It has been a while since the last time I post something here.

I really wanna post somethings here, but I'm lazy la...

haha...That's me.

Since I'm really free in front of the computer right now, I'm goin to post something here.

It's Taekwondo competition 2moro.

I'm not getting neither nervous nor scare.

However, I feels like it is really hard for me to gain any medal since I'm not really experience in it.

Unlike May Ann who has skills in it or Yen Teng who really has a lot of stamina.

I lack of everything.

What I get is just the spirit...spirit don't help a lot, don't it?

Well, let's talk about my school life.

I will just tell you guys the result by after the competition.

School life is really dull and grey.

I'm grey, school life is grey, so do my life.

Everything is just in GREY.

When will the climax of my life reach??

Hmm...

I'm waiting for PMR.

But still I'm not preparing for it through.

I'm really such a lazy person.

I hate myself of being lazy, but it can't helped.

I am lazy.

I tried to change, as the result, it failed.

I had a lot of secret in my brain that I can't tell out.

And it squeeze my brain...geez.

I just hate goin to school now, unlike the past of me who enjoyed goin to school.

There are a ton of projects waiting for me at school.

I try to ignore them, but the teachers will turn to me.haiz...

I had just done my KH and Seni.

There are still KGT and KKS left.

KKS is almost done, left the hardest part.

KGT is totally blank.

I didn't even touch my finger on it.

I wish I had a copy of the project in my hand right now.

I think it is enough for this post.

Ja..mata ne.

-Don't stress ourself too much. Work can never be finished-

-UnKnowN=)

My Story Episode 21: I hate being fame.

Grrrr....
I just went to dentist this morning to have my teeth gt cabut.
Guess what happened?
The dentist there just blame on me that my teeth spoil.
She said that I giving excuses during school time, then they can't do any treatment to me and caused my teeth spoil.
WHAT THE...!!!!!
Come on. I'm not that kind of person that scare of this kind of thing.
They did give me treatment last year but not on that teeth.
I really wanna asked her to check for the record if my mouth wasn't pain that time.
She is a jerk who just love to blame everything on those student.
FUCK her!!
This is the first time I scold bad word to someone else. She deserve it!!!
She said she don't to see me at the clinic next time and ask me to get treatment at school.
Damn it!!
It's not like I wanted to see her so much.
I hate the feeling of being famed.
I'm already get rid of it.
Don't ever let me get into this kind of situation again.
I scare I will scold her directly in front of her.
Once again I claimed.
I DON'T LIKE THE FEELING OF BEING FAMED!
DON'T EVER TRY TO BLAME ME ON SOMETHING THAT I DIDN'T DO!!
I MARK ON MY WORDS!

My Story Episode 20: Happy Birthday to Jordan in Advance.^^

I surprise that some of my frenz are actually noticing about my blog.
I'm so touch. Thx^^.
Well I had just pass my intervension 2 safely-for now only.
I don't know what will happen when the result come out.
I wish I wouldn't fall.
I had get rid of my marks keep falling.
What to do? I'm just a normal people.
I can't make sure that I will always be in good condition.
Today, I just went to sing k with my frenz.
Zing Mun, May Ann, Ho Yi, Jordan and my jerk bro.
It was really fun.^^
I want to go back there again.
Somehow, we didn't manage to sing girls generation's Gee.
They don't have this band on their list!!!!
How can this be. Even the Wonder Girls are in the list!!!!
Girls Generation is more and more better and popular than them!!!
Oh ya! We sing k today is actually to celebrate Jordan's birthday in advance.
His birthday is on 5th of April.
I don't think that I going to buy a present for him.
And now, I got to think about May Ann's present.
Her birthday had already pass...wish that she won't angry..hehe
Next, I got to prepare for Yen Teng's present.
I'm not going to mention her present here since she lovee blogging so much.
So, here I wish Jordan: "Happy Birthday" in advance.
That's all...
I will bring you to a sweet dream.^^
-UnKnowN=)

My Story Episode 19: My current life style and feeling.

I was lazy to post, but when it comes to exam, i wanna post something here
Weird??haha...I am weird.
I just wanna shout out here!!!AHHH!!!
Currently, my sickness is back.
What sickness? Kindergarten sickness...haha
Just like being emo. Very less ppl know my true characteristic.
When I was small, I don't like anything or anyone.
I don't even like frenz.
Whenever someone comes near me and talk to me, i just fell that they are annoying.
I just love being alone and thinks a lot of stuff that I actually remember it now.
I'm just a weird kids known as my teacher.
Seeing me now, no one will think about it.
They will thought as a hyper active and talkative girl.
Maybe because of frenz. They are the one who change me a lot.
Thx to them.^^
But not every frenz...
Everyone just know me as how am i looking now, without looking at my dark side again.
okay let's forget the past to look to forward.
Now, I'm having Intervention 2.
超烦的！我真的不想上学啦！
每天都必需面对许多的烦恼和功课。
再加上PMR！
若我是个天才该有多好呢。算了吧，反正我又不是个天才。
只好努力咯。
Even through I had change a lot form my kindergarden but actually I'm still the original me.
I just like to laugh outside, but inside of me was emoing at the same time.
Now, I just wanna have fun as a teenager. I don't want to be such a stupid person like when I was in kindergarden.
Maybe now, I was like other teenager, dreaming about the other partner.
I won't be shy to said it out.
I really do think about boyfriend.
But what I really want is a true one not a play play one.
That's all about my feeling now.
Got to go.
Ja ne.
-UnKnowN:)

My Story Episode 18: Emo??

Currently, I'm not sure what is happening to myself.

Even if I walking with my frenz, I feels like I'm alone.

Sometimes when they were talking to me, I was like I can't heard anything.Why???

I always had daydreaming but not sure what am I thinking about.

I always smile to others, but not to my own self.

When I'm alone, my whole expression will change to dull.

When I'm listening to any song, some flash back are in my mind.

Those flash back are where I always feel alone.

It makes me feels crying.

Emo-ing, am I?

I don't want to but I can't control it.

I'm done with those people who are acting around me, not sure who is it but juz....

I realize there aren't anyone that we can believe, not even our self.

Our self is the one who cheat us the most.

They try to cover our own feeling.

I'm not someone who will act around others.

But sometimes, I really had to.

I don't one others to know the deep inside of me that I'm not really sure.

Maybe, is the stress that cause me of being like this?

Suddenly, I felt that I'm not a child anymore.

I can't act and think like a child.

When everyone is thinking about teenager time, I'm thinking about my future.

I feel that my future is dark...

Is it because I had no a way that I wanna choose?

I'm not sure.

My self told me that I will take the path of being a forensic.

But am I really wanted to?

My head now is full of question of my future.

And because of that, I'm emo-ing.

My future...I want a bright future that give me hopes..

But can I? With those result?

I don't really like my result.

It makes me feel that I'm juz a normal person.

Is not that I'm not a normal person, but I wanna make something special about my life.

I wanna make a huge success.

At the same time, I wanna enjoy it.

Being forensic is not bad, but it will take a longer time than others.

I'm not the kind of person that able to bear.

This post juz my own opinion, not pointing to anyone.

That's all.

Nite=)

-UnKnowN=)